Please, please pray for my husband Kent. He is not getting better, but worse.
He seems to not be able to emotionally handle anything anymore. He got upset
because he had to get his birth certificate, and it had his grandfather's name on
it. He is still living in the past, and is having a hard time releasing it. Someone
walked by me and said "You are starting to sound like Steve". Steve was my
brother who passed away due to cancer. I am concerned about my husband's
health due to way too much alcohol drinking. I feel guilty so many times like I
was the cause for his problems. Cry a lot over it. So hard right now. I do love
him, but he is a very harsh type character, and he does not know how to love.
But so hardened for so long, but even still he is a very loving outgoing person. just very wounded. I hate to see him waste his life like this. Really hurts
me deeply. I deeply care for him, but it is very overwhelming. He thinks I am
mistreating him because I make it very clear that he should really sober up, but according to the teachings of Alanon, I am saying the wrong things to him.
So hard for me. It is like having a life raft in your hand, and the drowning
person says no. I have the answer for him, but he will not listen. I am going
to have to get therapy counsel now, because I am becoming overwhelmed.
I am not bitter at anyone, but I am very careful who I open up my life too. So many women getting all kinds of cancers. Are they getting involved with men
who carry HIV, and then they get cancer from being with them? I am worried about that. Please pray that Abba Father will come to me with the right
counsel. Thank you so much for anyone caring to pray for Kent and myself.